• Finding Inspiration from revisiting 3,972 old posts

    I unpublished almost all my blog posts years ago. Some posts were only links. Many were broken because they were generated by other apps and services like EyeEm and Pressgram. I didn’t see the value in maintaining a blog so I stopped. Why would anyone want to read my blog? I didn’t realize the value is in thinking things out while writing.

    Today I spent two hours creating a process to review, update, and republish the good ones.

    9 down, 199 more to go.

    I got a little emotional looking at all the photos of my first few months in Berlin. I can remember every one of those moments. I was filled with such hope and optimism to start a new life in a new city with a new wife. I’d argue that I would be in a darker place if I stayed in New York.

    I found the exercise to be motivating. I’m going to enjoy republishing them. My goal is 208 old posts this year. 9 down, 199 more to go.

  • Reading my 2020 Notes

    Had a good day of settling into not working from home yesterday. The family swung by at 3 pm to have coffee and cake. I enjoy spending time with my wife and daughter.

    This might be the reason the first lockdown felt like a mid-life vacation. I worked very hard on myself and at creating the environment I found myself in when the world down in March. Today brought in my notebooks and journals to review my 2020 goals and objectives. Right off the bat, I can say that my most important goal of 2020 was accomplished. I’m going to see what goals I didn’t hit and ask myself why.

    From this, I will write my life plan for 2021.


    I’m putting everything into folders organized by categories of focus like health, family, and work.

    Going forward I will work on one folder at a time. 2021 is going to be all about less & focus.

  • A cold and empty place to layout 2020 broken pieces

    I was reluctant to give up my office in September. The co-working space I was a member of was selling more desks. I was happy to see them make back some of the money they lost from 科维德 pandemic, but the crowds of new people were making it unsafe.

    At first, I was able to work from home, albeit it was for only 4 1/2 hours during weekdays. My day would be over when Ms. Barba would come home from school. It took some time to adjust, but I was starting to get used to it. Then Mrs. Barba’s office told her to work from home 3 days a week. Ouch. This was rough.

    I found myself working from 9:30 pm to 1:30 am. Most nights I was hungry and would eat cereal. I’d wake up exhausted leading to less productivity and more anxiety. I discovered that I’m less confident and optimistic when tired. I was eating more and moving less. I stop meditating and was descending into that cold grey winter Berlin depression. And nobody wants to be around an unproductive, stressed, and depressed Tony. I needed to stop this spiral.

    Today is December 1st. I went back to the co-working space to see if, like my wife, more people were working from home. I’m happy to report that I am now working from a safe and empty unheated co-working space.

    Today I’m laying out all the broken pieces of 2020 on the table to rebuild building 2021 and beyond. And there are a lot of pieces.

  • November, 2008

    • I’m at ad:tech New York today. Looking forward to meeting a few people I’ve been speaking to on the phone.
    • Off to vote.
    • Listening to French conversation in the press room of #adtechny as I write a blog post. All I hear are web 2.0 brand names dropped every min.
    • heading over to latitude bar for the #adtechny cocktail party. I really could use a drink after today.
    • Obama is the 44th President of the United States.
    • Google withdrawing from Yahoo deal; not worth the legal fight. Mission Accomplished.
    • Off to The Emperor Has No Clothes: The Affluent Consumer Online @ #adtechny & @doshdosh Palin is done. Party going to mutate in next 4 yrs
    • Playing with the new www.Plaxo.com site before getting the Higbie Bagels with the German.
    • Eddie Bauer’s return policy, a huge part of their brand is purposely vague & disingenuous. The brand is old, tired, boring & will die a slow death
    • Comments on my “DPA” post brought back memories of cruisin’, Monte Carlos, t-tops, IROC’s & Z. Cavariccis. What does DPA mean to you LI?
    • Wish I could be in the Oval Office listening to the Bush & Obama conversation.
    • I just got hit by friendly fire Rick Rolling Bea. Now I that stupid song stuck in my head.
    • Back at my desk returning calls & emails. Fun having dinner with Rob, Melissa, Bea at Mexican Radio & drinks with team Greece at Pravada.
    • Did the Google Analytics home page change? I like.
    • My weekly review is going analog. Working with pencil and paper today.
    • A product added to iliketotallyloveit.com only 6 hours ago by a first time submitter is already #3 on Google for its Key Word. I’m shocked.
    • Off to see 007 at the new Tanger outlet movie theater. It’s a warm & damp long island night. Storm’s a-brewing.
    • Double 0 Awesome. This Bond kicks A$$. The new theater @ Tanger Arches is a brand spanking new & clean, please tare down stinky Commack
    • Digg Facts: Over 30 million users every month, about 16,000 submissions a day, and about 32,000 comments.
    • Cleaning garage day here at the Barba’s & I found my Palm Pilot IIIxe. Damn, there is no way to connect it to any of my computers.
    • Packing books and listening to mash-ups from the http://mashuptown.com/ podcast. Bose speakers, best present ever.
    • Taking the German to Benihana’s tonight for something different. I think she’ll like it and I haven’t been since Abracadabra came out.
    • Alan Keyes files a lawsuit over Obama eligibility. Why doesn’t this issue go away?
    • Pondering. Will Obama offer McCain Sec. of Defense? Clinton Sec of State? What would Lincoln do? Would they accept it? Shouldn’t I be sleeping?
    • Getting acquainted with the Google Analytics visualization feature. Watching trends for the past two years. Wish I could slow the speed down.
    • What’s the etiquette when someone accepts a friendship/connection on a social network? Is emailing a thank you already too spammy? Thoughts?
    • CEOs of GM, Ford & Chrysler flew private jets to DC to cry poverty. Go home & restructure before begging. Fire PR & fly first class back.
    • I have 1 hour before the wife gets home. Let’s see how much of the Rezorter style sheet I can get done. Richard bear w/ me as I slow u down.
    • That was a very very productive hour. Going to be a husband for a few hours, continue after she falls asleep. Thank you SomaFM Digitalis.
    • Done for tonight. Can Richard & I rebuild/launch Rezorter.com in 7 days? That’s the challenge I’m enjoying. Going in a totally new direction
    • ‘Twas the night before tomorrow, when all through the house, not a creature was stirring, only tony B’s mouse.
    • Great conversation w/ an Internets Celebrities of Ghetto Big Mac, Bodega & Checkmate fame.
    • Felt great to go back to EUE/Screen Gems today, see the old gang. I’ve come full circle & ready for what’s coming next. I learned a lot there
    • Listening to Kayne West’s new album. Love/hate him this guy is talented. The first track is very sad. 1st album since his mother passed on.
    • Listening to Kanye’s new album again while working on the Rezorter UI design. The first track is my favorite. Album reminiscent of William Orbit
    • How does my partner Richard work this fast? Now I have to catch up.
    • Listening to Pink Floyd’s The Man & the Journey. Recorded live 1969.
    • For some strange reason, everyone is awake at 5 am & ready to have breakfast. I guess she’s excited to get to work today too.
    • Been going almost non-stop since 6 am. Going to take a little lunch break. Checkers (the poor man’s In & Out burger) here I come!
    • There is so much in my life to be thankful for.
    • While Bea sleeps I’m playing with her brand new MacBookPro. Glossy screen, no 2nd button, cold sharp aluminum edges but it’s looks awesome!
    • Productive day of de-cluttering, organizing & packing. Found tons of cool stuff from my childhood. Taking Mrs. Barba out as my reward.

  • We’re moving to Berlin

    I am excited to announce that I’ve accepted the COO position at www.iliketotallyloveit.com and Beatrix and I are moving to Berlin on January 1st.

    On May 24th Bea and I flew to Germany to get married and go on a much-needed honeymoon. You hear of little girls having dream weddings, well this was my dream wedding. As a kid, I wanted to get married in an old European church as my mother and father did. It was a beautiful wedding and I was blessed to be married to such a wonderful lady.

    After the wedding, Bea and I took a little day trip to France to have coffee, cake and reflect on the near future. We were sitting in a little café in Strasbourg and I said in passing, “wouldn’t it be great to live in Europe.” Bea agreed and added that we only have a limited opportunity to do so before we have kids in school.

    The following weekend we from Saint a Vault to Berlin Sunday Bea and I settled into a great apartment in an amazing part of Berlin called Prenzlauer Berg and I felt strangely at home immediately.

    I read that TechCrunch was having its first Meetup while I was in town and I wanted to see what the Tech Scene in Berlin was like, so I emailed Nicholas MacGowan von Holstein and luckily he responded by getting me on the list.

    I was shocked by how many people showed up and meet a lot of great people. I knew that night that Berlin was a possible city for me to live.

    I keep in touch with many of the people I meet but one German in particular Malte Gösche, iliketotallyloveit.com.

    When I got back to New York my Rezorter.com proposal was on the desk of SkiNet.com and I had free time so we worked out a short term contract and I began to put together a business plan with Malte.

    The business plan took longer than we expected, but every day I was more excited about the companies potential.

    This month I’ve been negotiated terms to come on board fulltime.

    This is a once in a lifetime opportunity.

  • October 2008

    • Going for a walk on the beach. Field Five Robert Moses. It’s been a long 12 days. Feels good.
    • Senate passes the bailout bill.
    • The Obama team is amazing. They just released an iPhone recruiting, campaign tool. Gotta give credit where it’s due.
    • British Airways refunded my hotel & meals for a canceled flight. Also, gave me a $200 credit for my next flight? Thanks for valuing my time.
    • Today was a good day back. Made some positive progress on theClozing with Joe & got a surprise voice mail from my favorite real estate agent
    • So wait. Barry Frank’s gay lover Herb Moses was a Fannie Mae exec. while they pushed relaxed lending restrictions.
    • It’s so nice and peaceful to wake up in the middle of the night, do some great work for a couple-three hour and sneak back to bed.
    • Howard Stern got married in NYC Friday. Guests @ Le Cirque, incl Joan Rivers, Barbara Walters, Billy Joel, Sarah Silverman & Robin Quivers
    • Queen Latifah will play Gwen Ifill, on “SNL” this week.
    • WTF? Is this viral marketing for Ghost Buster 3? There isn’t even an approved script yet. I like Akroyd more now.
    • Went to 7-11 to get my Blueberry Coffee. They only had Obama cups. An employee said, “You think we’re stupid?” We sold out of the McCain cups.
    • “I’ll be taking these Huggies and whatever cash ya got.” Just finished watching Raising Arizona with the Little Misses.
    • Planning with @malte in the West Village. Think I need to find my passport tonight.
    • I’m at the MLS Tech Fair on Long Island. Let’s see what new in Real Estate Technology.
    • Working from the Sellsius booth @ the MLS Real Estate Tech Fair today. Gave a few industry people a sneak peek of http://theclozing.com.
    • Settling into the couch to watch the debate. Met & had dinner with interesting people after the Tech Fair w Joe. I’ll follow-up tomorrow.
    • Got a sneak peek at http://SkiNet.com TV. The player looks great & there’s plenty of good content. Can’t wait to go skiing this season.
    • Damn. The National Debt Clock in NYC has run out of digits. Video History of Clock
    • “Sometimes, they come up and bribe me with a cigarette, or they’ll give me a dollar to sign up” 
    • Let’s see how long I can go without watching, reading or listening to the news. What will I miss? Can I make it 24 hours?
    • I did it. 24 hours with no political news. Spending the day in the Hamptons with Bea to recharge.
    • Woke up in the middle of the night. Checked email, IM’d w/ Colorado & Germany. Watched XTC Video & didn’t check Drudge. News Embargo day two.
    • I did it. No political/financial news over the weekend. I feel less stressed and more productive. Great because I have tons of work to do.
    • I just got interviewed about Rezorter.com for Outside Magazine. Very cool.
    • I like totally love the jetpack-tshirt.
    • Wrote my first update. It’ll be the last post on that site since we’ve moved the blog off Blogspot.
    • @JFSellsius has written the first post about our joint project called theClozing.com.
    • Very pleased with the number of real estate blog submissions we’ve gotten for www.theclozing.com in only 10 hours.
    • Had another very long, but productive day polishing the business plan & pitch presentation for the VC’s we’re meeting in Berlin next week.
    • BUFFETT: Be fearful when others are greedy, and be greedy when others are fearful.
    • Why does Yahoo charge its users for decent spam, virus & phishing protection? Yahoo has so much potential.
    • Who Ray. I just found my German cell phone!
    • Back in Berlin. Off to grab breakfast with @Malte. When can I find a dark brewed coffee in Mitte?
    • They speak German in Berlin too? Everyone around me at cafe St. Oberholz is speaking English. My attempt to ordered in German failed again.
    • Planning my day 4.0. Will be at Lunch 2.0 at noon.
    • Why can’t there be a blogging software as simple and robust to use as when you are logged into Facebook?
    • Back in my office today. Reaching out to everyone I met whilst in Berlin. So many interesting people doing interesting things.
    • VistaPrint screwed me out of almost $200 by signing me up for PASSPORTTOFUN without my permission. One of those cancel after 30 days hit jobs
    • The Economist endorsed Obama (2008), Kerry (2004), Bush (2000), Dole (1996), Clinton (1992), no-one (1988, 1984) & Reagan (1980)
    • Now I remember why I’m such a huge Lost fan. Just watched the new season 5 promo
    • Any suggestions for a weekend get-away destination close to NYC?
    • We’re Nantucket bound. Made the executive decision to drive to Hyannis tonight & we’ll take the first Ferry over tomorrow with our bikes.
  • Geller Update

    This was just emailed to me by Jake:

    Paying Homage to a Man Who Left His Mark on the East End By Nicholas Morehead, The Southampton Press, June 1, 2006

    In the quest to complete his latest project, Jake Gorst is up against a powerful enemy: time. The 36-year-old documentary filmmaker is looking for financial backing to make a movie about his grandfather, the renowned architect Andrew Geller, now in his 80s. Mr. Geller’s unconventional use of angular designs throughout Fire Island and the East End in 1950s and 1960s established him among the most prominent East End architects. Examples of Mr. Geller’s work can be seen throughout eastern Long Island. There’s the Elkin House in Amagansett, built-in 1966 with its series of triangles resembling a geodesic dome unpeeled. And the Pearlroth House, built in what is now West Hampton Dunes in 1958. With its side-by-side double-diamond configuration, the Pearlroth House looks more interstellar spacecraft than domestic domicile.

    Considered iconic by most who know it—a modern, progressive, post-World War II resort home—the Pearlroth House, with its bold shapes and striking design, has inspired generations of architects to pursue similar careers, according to Mr. Gorst.

    Last spring, owner Jonathan Pearlroth offered to donate the house to Southampton Town rather than demolish it to make way for a new home he plans to build on the site. The Town Board agreed to take the house and in October agreed to move the now-famous box kite-shaped beach house to Hot Dog Beach in East Quogue. There, it will be used as a learning center, part of a larger recreational master plan for the area.

    Mr. Geller’s designs, Mr. Gorst argues, are significant not only for their architectural brilliance but also for their cultural significance. Through their unique structures and shapes, Mr. Gorst said his grandfather “showed the world … that the common man could indeed be the king of his own castle or castles.”

    From his early days growing up a child of Russian immigrant parents in Depression-era Brooklyn through his prominent career as vice president of architecture for Raymond Loewy, considered by many to be the father of industrial design, Mr. Geller’s story is one that needs to be told, Mr. Gorst said. And it needs to be told soon. In the last two months alone, two potential interview subjects died—Justin Fabricius, who ran the Raymond Loewy office in the early 1970s, and John “Hobby” Miller, who constructed most of Mr. Geller’s designs on Fire Island and in the Hamptons.

    “Besides them, there are probably about a dozen original homeowners—all in their 80s and 90s—that we need to get to soon,” Mr. Gorst said.

    Mr. Gorst has made several documentaries through his Northport-based company Jonamac Productions, including “Leisurama,” a 2005 film about a Montauk housing development. Jonamac is currently in post-production on “Desert Utopia: Mid-Century Architecture in Palm Springs.”

    As for the Geller film, Mr. Gorst’s crew is ready to go. His wife, Tracey, is set to be the production assistant, and Mr. Gorst himself does most of the camera work and just about all of the editings. He even has a title for the project: ”Call Me Andy.”

    Mr. Gorst expects the movie will cost about $131,100 to make.

    Meanwhile, Mr. Geller is “rather overwhelmed with the attention and he doesn’t really understand” why anyone is making such a fuss over him, Mr. Gorst said.

    “It’s unbelievable,” Mr. Geller said recently from his Northport home. Having conducted his portion of the film’s interviews about a year and a half ago, Mr. Geller said now he’s “just sitting here being flattered.

    “That’s what happens when you have a fantastic grandson.”

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